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indeed my lyf is nt meant to b hapee. i hv my reasons whn i said tht. i hvnt been hapee fr more than 24hrs. im freakn keen to find out ta reasOn y. weird thO. im bubbly, playful, jokeable n yet im nt hapee?

i ws browsn thru my past pOstd blOggies n i sw a pOst whr i ws talkn bout ths brO tht enlightnd me. thn i begn to search fr ta advices he pourd to me. i ws readn every single word tht he said to me. i ws troubld wid prObz varyin frm luv lyf, frenshp, studies. al togethr. wOw. hw bd lyf cn b. he ws like a mentOr to me. guided me evry step. as time past. we began to drift apart. no more xchangn msges. he ws workn. i found my dearie tht tym. al my time ws dedicatd to him. both of us went seperate ways. somehw his msges stil enlightns me. ^^ p/s: robert bro if ur readn. its tru. ur words remains in me.

i began to collect n gathr every piece of my thots n place them in place. i am who i am. just recently im so restles n tired. dun feel like doin anytin. gOd knws hw much iv been slpn. alOoooOt. ^^ mayb as mum said ”excessiv slp kills ur brain cells”  a sentence whch is constantly utterd by mum. mayb i reAly meltd my brains. i cn even thnk of ta simplst solution fr ta easiest ques. lAme mAple.

y do ppl hv to b like tht? no answr to ths. i knw it. diff thots? diff personality? iv tried aceptn ppl who differs frm my usual clan. i reAly did try wid al my hArt n sOul. jst dun seem to b adequate. certain ” diff ” r jst so nice n sweet tht i cudnt bear labeling them ” diff ”. wel, if labeln sounds toO mean. thn im sry. i jst cudnt thnk of a btr wrd. =) i proudly cal these group of ppl my fRenz. i wud do anytn fr them. aftral they jst need to b nice to me n il b ta same in return. as ta sayn goes, we hv to go wid ta flO ~~

ths particular persn. im dOne wid ya. fck off n gt a lyf. die wid ur sins n egOism. some wud ask ” is ths necassary? ” yeap. it is. to me. anger releasd. upset gone. thnx fr scrwn my dAy bIAtch. bIatch bcz ” its ” doins r jst like bItches. tWo fAced mOnstr.

iv cleard my mind. vry clear. as clear as crystal clear water. =)  i reflect wel on ths mattr. my tantrums needed to b ctrlld. im so manJa- fIed tht i need plenty of tym to ctrl tht thO. il do my part. nt to wry, peeps.